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all regarding the God that still involves Himself in the details of the lives of His people
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Because simple daily Christian living is never what we thought it would be
Before long, I have just wasted countless time. Looking back, I can see that I did truly give over some things to You. Still others I have given over to You in thought, but take from Your hands again at the end of the prayer. These, I still cling to, though I do not know why. Looking back over my life is sadness. Wishing I could have scored a record more white. Knowing that God can remember the details of each and every of those moments when I made poor decisions, fills my life with more regret.
Faith is in the Coming
Faith is in the Coming
I am constantly amazed at my own faithlessness. The Lord has brought me through some horrific situations…both of natural disaster and those I have brought upon myself. And although I praise Him for a time, and remember always to be thankful, somehow I disconnect with the faith portion of this lesson learned when in the next desperate situation.
His love, Your love Lord, is more than I can begin to understand. For You to be so patient, is beyond my human comprehension. You have saved my body literally from fire, from wreckage, from illness. You have saved my child from cancer. You have saved our entire family from death. You have saved my marriage. You have saved me from sure humiliation. You have saved us financially. Your patience, and consideration, and love for me have stretched, well…far beyond the quota.
Yet, without consideration for You, or what you have already done for me, naturally I try to solve my own next problem. Is it just that I am embarrassed because I am in trouble again? Is it that I feel responsible for causing the problem or in some way that I have allowed the problem to arise? Is it that I think that You might be more proud of me if I solve the problem on my own? Is it that I feel insignificant and don’t want to bother you with such trivial things? Ironically, the attempt to solve the problem by myself, even if I do feel it is for Your sake, allows a separation in our relationship. And then, the harder I try to bridge the gap of separation created by my attempt at resolution, the wider the gap…the deeper the separation.
Before long, I have just wasted countless time. Looking back, I can see that I did truly give over some things to You. Still others I have given over to You in thought, but take from Your hands again at the end of the prayer. These, I still cling to, though I do not know why. Looking back over my life is sadness. Wishing I could have scored a record more white. Knowing that God can remember the details of each and every of those moments when I made poor decisions, fills my life with more regret.
But this is the human side of thinking…and You are not human. You are God. You are my God, and because I come to You, there is no record. You choose to not remember. This is so far beyond my comprehension, because I remember, I remember so much. But, your love for me is not limited and in this You can give me a new blank opportunity at life and love and relationship because I do come to You. This is my faithfulness…that I believe in a living God, who loves in a way that cannot be measured, and come to Him… continually.
So faith is not measured in the trial...faith is measured in the coming… acting on the belief that He alone is the only solution.
In obedience
Rhonda D Loucks